Well finally

I have been trying to get on the blog builder for over a week now and it finally let me in.
Here is a part of a letter that I sent to some people who I know

You are my dear friends and I love you.  You are all wonderful estimable people with great character and sweet, sweet hearts.  Over the past years I have become friends with, and gotten to know you all. 

Now, I have worked with all of you, and you all have said essentially the same thing to me.  You have said,

 “I need a community that understands what I am doing and supports me as I move into spiritual service.  What I am doing is important but without community I am very lonely.”

During the last few years I have become a hub with many of you working on your emotional spiritual growth with me as your support.  I have loved what I have done with every one of you.  It has been a wonderful experience.  I am so very honoured that you have been willing to work with me.  Some of this work couldn’t be easy.

However, as thing are with me as the hub and you as the spokes, you are all struggling with isolation and needing community and I seem to be in the middle so that none of you are connected although you know the others exist.

 

The truth is that I need community too. 

Being the hub has become taxing.  I am in the wrong position and I believe that it isn’t healthy for any of us.  All of you are now to a point that you as individuals need each other more than you need one person as a center support.  I don’t need to be keeping you apart.

So I am taking myself out of the middle. 

It is so obvious when you see it and so wrong.  This is very unfair for these women and for me.

now I need to take steps to correct this.